Three Strikes

A Curve Ball
Every once in a while, life throws me a curve ball...shit that blindsides me, hitting me right between the eyes and I don't know shit what just happened...like now. Even with the best of intentions and coming from love, things don't fall into place and I find myself in a quandrum, thinking, "huh?". 3 strikes in a very short span of time. When it rains, it really pours. I just don't get it.

How so?
An ex-intimate friend whose company I continue to enjoy and whose friendship I value dearly, is now on parallel universe with me. One other friendship that looked promising just went down the drain yesterday...along professional lines, but of course, the personal part is corollarily affected by it. Today, I don't even want to be with my loved one over a continuing argument that would seem lame and academic.

Wanna Be Out There
Since these people are dear to me, I checked-in my ego and took a few steps back, trying to see the big picture, asking myself, "What did I do wrong this time?". But no. I couldn't find any. I stayed real the whole time. I couldn't find blame in me...even after looking hard enough. And nothing makes sense. Right now, I just want to be away from it all...no one else to bother with...no one else to put up with. Just me, my backpack and the open road.

Throwing-in the White Towel
What am I to make out of all this? Dunno. Maybe it's just a sign I shouldn't be in Manila, as I have long maintained. I've obviously overstayed and maybe this is the backlash...continuing to stay in a place that doesn't call out.

--- TheLoneRider

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Lynn
(Feb 27, 2010) di ba sabi mo... "Life is full of surprises and every bend on the road brings promise of new beginnings." just wait and everything will be alright!

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